2024

Can't still process how fast 2024 passed by. This year gave a lot of reality checks. I explored really good cinema this year. A cinema which is not straight forward , a cinema which is very subtle and which is more about the character and not the story. "All we Imagine as a light", "The Disciple", "Girls Will be Girls" , each of these is about studying the character. Story is also very important , but beauty of these movies is that story is subtle, as a viewer it's on you to interpret the story the way you want to. These stories gave me a broader view to see things and challenged my opinions on lot of things which was the most fun part.

Academically things were quite stressful, realised that doing doing more than enough is also not enough. No matter how hard you try, some external factors which are not even in your hand will definitely interfere in your journey and at the worst moment. Murphy law also states that "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong". This year was a year which proved Murphy's law a lot times. It will be good that we get used to these things as soon as possible, there is no another way.

Overall it was a year which in itself can become a new genere. It is very well said that endings are the new beginnings, hence a cheer to new beginnings and wish overall health and happiness of each individual.

SIGNING OFF!!!!

The Other Side

I had an epiphany going on in my head for a long time. I was writing a lot of private blogs for some time but was not thinking of publishing one. Just penning down some observations, experiences and perspectives. One may or may not agree with whatever is written, which is not even the intent here. 

Often we do have disappointments in our life. But sometimes we forget to see "The Other Side". As it is being said that there is always a blessing in disguise. We just need to recognize it. There is no one who has never faced failures, rejections, and sorrows in his/her life. But is there always a blessing associated with a disguise? 

There comes a lot of situations in our life, when we loose our hope. We start feeling helpless , we just keep scolding our fate and life. But wheel of time goes such a way that few years on the line , when we connect the dots of our life, we find out that those experiences was very important. We realize that those experiences has somehow prepared us for our future life. 

All we need is to stop complaining about things. I know, in practical life things affect a lot. And getting out of those things is definitely not an easy task. But what we need to know is that it is not even impossible. I feel if we have a will or determination to get out of things, our gut itself starts preparing us. We just can't keep complaining about our life all the time. This is our life, this is our fate , we have to accept it anyway. Just accept whatever has happened. Just go with whatever is happening. And be optimistic for whatever is going to happen further. 

Just believe that things will eventually work out. Something good will definitely come to you. Enjoy the process. Keep praising yourself for becoming a fighter, not a quitter. And just remember "Not all battles are fought for victory, some are fought simply to tell that someone was there on battlefield". 

I believed that god didn't blessed me with good height. God didn't blessed me with good looks. I often used to feel inferior because of that. But I knew that i didn't had any choice in this. But now what i am supposed to do with my life, what kind of person i want to be. These are the choices i have to make. So rather than focusing on the things which are not in my control i focused on what was in my hand. 

And then i realized that no matter how bad you are going through. No matter what you are feeling. But there is always something which gives us choice. Either to keep crying over the things and question our fate or to focus on our life choices is totally our call. 

Enjoy this wonderful story of yours. You are, you were and only you will be the main character of your story. Just like other stories your story will also have lows-highs, ups-downs but eventually there is always a climax at the end. Don't ever forget to write a good climax for your one.

Thanks!

Dear Priyanka

 Dear Priyanka, I don't know how to start this note. There is a lot more to write about you. Meeting you has been the best thing that has happened to me in the last few times. 

I don't know how I can define you. The best listener, the most genuine person, the most confused person(hehe), the girl with misaligned teeth, the most beautiful soul, or the best dancer. You are much more than this. 

Yaar whenever you are low, I also start feeling bad. Whenever you are happy, I feel it too. When you were at bed rest after the best dance performance of your life, i was just praying ki theek kardo bhagwan bss is ldki ko jldi se. Aur fir ab realize hua ki ab toh you are permanent VIKLAANG. Bata raha hun tujhe, abhi bhi time hai PWD certificate banwale, wheel chair m ghumayenge tujhe.

Yaar you cried for me yaar, esa kaun karta hai pagal. Btw bhuut bekar lgti hai rote hue tu. Also jab tu hansti hai na teri naak na upar slide ho jaati hai, dekh dekh try kar. Esi raha kar.

All I want to say is ups and downs aayenge, failures aayenge, somedays you will be happy, somedays you will just want to kill yourself, somedays you will be the happiest version of yourself but someday you will be the saddest one. All that matters is you still have faith in yourself, you still have faith in destiny. Because best thing about time is that it changes(Cliche maar diya na). Just be yourself, no matter what!

Baaki tu toh bindass ldki hai yaar, funny v hai, intelligent v hai, achi dancer v hai, savage v hai aur fir bolti hai ki "I am born with no talent". Bhagwan se toh dar le kutti.

Is semester bhuut kuch cheezein bigdi bhi, par the way you reacted has my whole heart. Thanks for reacting so maturely. I can't thank you enough for that. Par bete thodi der ke liye toh daraa hi di this. Na call receive, na reply. Mujhe laga m toh gaya ab.

Also Jaipur bada acha hai yaar. Kaafi mst vibe hain. Bs uncle ji forts sb ek jaise hain andr se. Aur haan sorry , my intention was not to disrespect uncle ji. 

Chlo at least last mein cheezein sahi ho hi jaati hain , finally ho hi gaye section change. Tujhse chutkara finally! Woohoooo! I am not going to miss you at all! 

Chal fir bhuut hai itna, bread pakode ki toh ni khaa sakta par cheese maggi ki kasam tu best hai yaar!(obviously mere baad).

Thanks again for being always there. I will always be thankful to god for introducing you in my life.

Aur yahan tak agar padh liya hai toh bhai shaab maan gaya, itna bada pdli. Esi meri book v padh lena jab ho jayegi poori. Pehla draft tujhe hi bhejunga.

Stay Happy, Stay Chutiya.

Epiphany 2

 In this world full of selfish peoples, finding ones who show a genuine concern for you is a blessing.With course of time i have realised that peoples either pretend that they care about you or they do so just for the sake of showing off humanity. This blog is here to mention some peoples in my life who made my 2022 more fruitful by their presence. 

Initial days of 2022 went in lockdown. College was shut off for few months and classes were shifted to online mode. Still somehow we managed , gave online exams and were promoted to 2nd sem. 2nd sem was fun. It was full of joy , attended fests , attended a lot of events and also got opportunity to associated with few organisations.

Then came 3rd sem , best semester till now. Never thought this sem will be this much fun. Biggest heartbreak there was a huge shuffling of sections. In first and second sem shuffling was not this much massive. So i was quiet nervous about the upcoming sem. But i think sometimes destiny is meant for good only. Met a lot of wonderful people this sem. As my last year's wrap blog, i would like to give huge shoutouts to few people i met this year and who has become an integral part of my life.

First shoutout to Manas , a typical Kanpur boy, who uses "Hum" instead of "Main". First encounter with Manas was very fun. He asked me for 50 Rs. cash and then for paytm, he asked my phone number. Who knew at that point of time that this boy will start calling me at lunch time just to kill his boredom. But i picked the call and he asked where are you , i was going to Kartik's hostel room. Manas replied i too want to join , this was Kartik and Manas's first encounter. But as time proceed friendship and chemistry started getting deeper too. Now i just hope Manas ka SAPNA poora ho jaaye atleast.

Next shoutout to Priyanka, Oh my God what a crazy girl she is. She is just bold and straightforward.No ifs, no buts just straightforward brutal replies. Apart from those whatsapp texts, my first conversation with her started with a height joke on me only. How can someone compare a low CGPA with short height and that too so spontaneously? What a creative girl! I think writing for Priyanka will take an another entire blog, but in short this is the best thing happened to me this year. 

Next shoutout to Bhavya , haha i dont know what should i write. Just blew away with your innocence on very first day. My eyes have always been on you. First day i just had a single introduction of yours which was , "wo pink bag waali ladki". And then we got to know full name. Oh my God "Oberoi"! She is super duper rich bro. At least she has 5 to 6 mercedes and 8 to 9 bmw. Jokes apart but initial interaction with you was just superb. Saw a dream about you though it didn't transform to reality but i think this is beauty of life. Just your presence is enough to make our day. Also, i know i owe you a lot of apologies. So sorry for all the chaos i created. Just be this crazy always.

Final shoutout to Purnima, first reaction was bhaishaab this girl is out of aukaat. Maintain distance from her bro, she is not our type. I still remember we were sitting in library and Manas was like "wo green bag waali ka insta account pata hai kya". Everyone had a secret crush on you(except me obviously-->pink>>green). But at the same time everyone was like "iska toh pakka boyfriend hai". Which is true as well. But honestly speaking you have so pure heart. No jealousy, no hatred for anyone. You just believe in enjoying your own life. Also don't forget business deal we have made.

At the end , 2022 was bittersweet. Lot of downs too were there, but i guess ups and downs go parallel to each other. One has to experience downs to actually realize the value of ups. The way i put my recap and shoutouts in my blog , the same way i put all my close ones in my heart. Thanks for making my 2022 better. 

Praying for even better 2023!

Signing off! 

Epiphany 2

 Somewhere we all are traumatized, depressed or anxious because of some past experiences of ourself or others. But is it worth it to restrict ourself from living our present in wholesome manner?  Can't we just do whatever we wanted from very beginning?

I think life is all about having experiences. Good or bad is just a matter of perception. One may find a particular situation a blessing , on the other hand one may find the same situation problematic.Obviously changing perception is not an easy task, indeed it is very very difficult. Then how can we change the way we see a situation? I feel only way is to challenge your ego. When we start seeing things as ego, things start becoming doable. We will have to challenge ourself. We will have to tell ourself things like "What a fool, can't you even overcome such a silly thing. Is this what you have learned throughout? What a quitter kind of person you are?' The moment we start saying these things to ourself, we challenge our own egos. The moment we challenge our egos, things start becoming doable. The memories of past experiences will still be there but our ego will become our survivor. This is what we call, the "POSITIVE EGO".  Osho said "Your Whole idea about yourself is borrowed from those who have no idea of who they are themselves".

Thing to keep in mind is don't ever change yourself. Be who you are , be who you wanted to be all this long. Bad experiences are also a part of life. Sometimes darkness is important to make you realise the happiness of sunrise as well. Darkness and sunrise has to go parallely to keep things balanced. Only challenge is to stay calm and same in all the situations. Make connections with people around you, socialise with as many people you can, explore the world, be empathetic to everyone and most importantly spread love.

Be the reason that people still believe in humanity.  

I know this blog was very short as compared to previous ones. But in mountains you can't resist yourself from writing. This blog is a product of this mountain effect.

Comment section is open to all.

Thanks for reading.

Spread Love!

Bitter Sweet Life

 It is very well said that if you want to explore something new , just read but if you want to express yourself , then write. This blog is intent purely to express my own few things. I don't know whether you will learn something out of it or not but i hope my personal experiences will atleast make you understand that life is almost same for everyone.

I went through the toughest phase of my life last year. It was march 2021 when i got to know a lot about something. The things that i couldn't think of were the things that were actually going on. I realised how i was being manipulated for so long by hiding the actual reasons. When i got to know about the actual things i was helpless, and was not even able to accept that this has actually happened. This was the time i cried most. This was the first time i craved for something so helplessly. I put down my self respect not even at zero level but in a negative point. 

One thing i regret now is that i reacted very reflexively. I think i should be at calm level at that point of time but my reaction was very spontaneous. I still regret that i should have reacted in a very behaved manner.

At this stage i want to give a huge shoutouts to my friends who supported me at that point of time. Especially Neeraj,Sonali,Diya,Robin. Thank you so much for being there. I don't think i will ever be able to disclose the actual reasons of whatever happened. I am bound to not to disclose them. Also i respect the privacy of other person as well. No matter what has been done by them , i can't compromise with my ethics.

I still feel i have been struck to that point only. I still wonder if i could go back to time and make everything sorted. But at the end this is what reality is. We have to accept it as soon as possible. It's better to leave things to destiny which you can't control. I don't have hard feelings for anyone in my life. I think every point of view is correct and we have to respect that.

As of now i think i have read so many books in last few months that i have not even studied in my entire life. I am doing good in academics as well. I am happy with all my mates and the kind of exposure i am getting is just amazing. And all hustle i am doing is i think is to keep myself busy. Because back in my mind i know i will keep revisiting those beautiful moments of my life. 

To those who are reading this, i want to say life will keep giving you new chances to rise and shine. Just keep waiting for those moments. Don't ever try to rush for anything. Things will come to you at their pace. Value the things you have. Don't be anxious for the past, don't be stressed for future as well. Just keep enjoying your present. Everything will be at their place. 

And still if there is something that is haunting you , start writing. This is best therapy. Believe me!

Thank you if you read till here.

Let's be non judgemental.

Epiphany

Hey everyone, hope you all are doing good. No one asked for a blog but still it is here. A little epiphany or i can say a little experience of mine i am going to write about. There is a major announcement at the end of blog as well. I am so much excited for that announcement , would require your love and support for that.

Today i have a story of my very close friend Disha(hypothetical). Disha's story is very interesting and is full of lot of dilemmas and questions. Disha was in a relationship. She was very happy and blessed to have such a partner. They both were in deep love to each other. One day she got a message from her partner that they should discontinue with their relationship. She was given not even a single reason for that. Ethical dilemma here is that no one of them has even thought of new relationships again.

This story seems very sorted out but there a lot of questionnaires that arises. Not only questionnaires but a lot of ethical dilemmas are there in this story. Sometimes i think , as a generation are we being intolerant in relationships? My friend Disha has lost faith in everyone now. She is not in a condition of believing anyone anymore. She is still looking for one single answer only, WHY? 

Today sitting in front of this calm and peaceful mountain view , this story wants to come out from my heart.  I just feel is it so easy to leave someone so easily who was dependent on you so much. One who used to be happy in your happiness , one who used to cry when you felt disappointed , one who was there for you always when you felt helpless and alone. How we have become so intolerant that within fraction of seconds we forget all what has been done for us by them. 

I feel either don't let anyone be dependent on you or if commitments has been given then try to understand the ACTUAL meaning of what COMMITMENT is. I just hope Disha get out of this phase soon. I want her to be tolerant. I want here to regain belief and faith in humanity. One bad experience doesn't guarantee that new experiences are also going to be bad. Sometimes bad things happen only to make you realize the importance of positives happening in your life.

At this moment , just close your eyes and thank god for all the positives in your life. I just hope you all have great time ahead! And may god give you the power to fight with your inner battles. Never feel you are alone ,someone is always with you in this battle.

MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENT:

As i mentioned in start of the blog that there is a major announcement. I just want you all to know that i am currently writing a screenplay. Work is on progress. Around 30 percent of work has been completed. I don't know how long will it take to get completed. Plan is to send the script to production houses. Will always require your love and support.

If you read till here, Thank you so much.

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