Bitter Sweet Life

 It is very well said that if you want to explore something new , just read but if you want to express yourself , then write. This blog is intent purely to express my own few things. I don't know whether you will learn something out of it or not but i hope my personal experiences will atleast make you understand that life is almost same for everyone.

I went through the toughest phase of my life last year. It was march 2021 when i got to know a lot about something. The things that i couldn't think of were the things that were actually going on. I realised how i was being manipulated for so long by hiding the actual reasons. When i got to know about the actual things i was helpless, and was not even able to accept that this has actually happened. This was the time i cried most. This was the first time i craved for something so helplessly. I put down my self respect not even at zero level but in a negative point. 

One thing i regret now is that i reacted very reflexively. I think i should be at calm level at that point of time but my reaction was very spontaneous. I still regret that i should have reacted in a very behaved manner.

At this stage i want to give a huge shoutouts to my friends who supported me at that point of time. Especially Neeraj,Sonali,Diya,Robin. Thank you so much for being there. I don't think i will ever be able to disclose the actual reasons of whatever happened. I am bound to not to disclose them. Also i respect the privacy of other person as well. No matter what has been done by them , i can't compromise with my ethics.

I still feel i have been struck to that point only. I still wonder if i could go back to time and make everything sorted. But at the end this is what reality is. We have to accept it as soon as possible. It's better to leave things to destiny which you can't control. I don't have hard feelings for anyone in my life. I think every point of view is correct and we have to respect that.

As of now i think i have read so many books in last few months that i have not even studied in my entire life. I am doing good in academics as well. I am happy with all my mates and the kind of exposure i am getting is just amazing. And all hustle i am doing is i think is to keep myself busy. Because back in my mind i know i will keep revisiting those beautiful moments of my life. 

To those who are reading this, i want to say life will keep giving you new chances to rise and shine. Just keep waiting for those moments. Don't ever try to rush for anything. Things will come to you at their pace. Value the things you have. Don't be anxious for the past, don't be stressed for future as well. Just keep enjoying your present. Everything will be at their place. 

And still if there is something that is haunting you , start writing. This is best therapy. Believe me!

Thank you if you read till here.

Let's be non judgemental.

Epiphany

Hey everyone, hope you all are doing good. No one asked for a blog but still it is here. A little epiphany or i can say a little experience of mine i am going to write about. There is a major announcement at the end of blog as well. I am so much excited for that announcement , would require your love and support for that.

Today i have a story of my very close friend Disha(hypothetical). Disha's story is very interesting and is full of lot of dilemmas and questions. Disha was in a relationship. She was very happy and blessed to have such a partner. They both were in deep love to each other. One day she got a message from her partner that they should discontinue with their relationship. She was given not even a single reason for that. Ethical dilemma here is that no one of them has even thought of new relationships again.

This story seems very sorted out but there a lot of questionnaires that arises. Not only questionnaires but a lot of ethical dilemmas are there in this story. Sometimes i think , as a generation are we being intolerant in relationships? My friend Disha has lost faith in everyone now. She is not in a condition of believing anyone anymore. She is still looking for one single answer only, WHY? 

Today sitting in front of this calm and peaceful mountain view , this story wants to come out from my heart.  I just feel is it so easy to leave someone so easily who was dependent on you so much. One who used to be happy in your happiness , one who used to cry when you felt disappointed , one who was there for you always when you felt helpless and alone. How we have become so intolerant that within fraction of seconds we forget all what has been done for us by them. 

I feel either don't let anyone be dependent on you or if commitments has been given then try to understand the ACTUAL meaning of what COMMITMENT is. I just hope Disha get out of this phase soon. I want her to be tolerant. I want here to regain belief and faith in humanity. One bad experience doesn't guarantee that new experiences are also going to be bad. Sometimes bad things happen only to make you realize the importance of positives happening in your life.

At this moment , just close your eyes and thank god for all the positives in your life. I just hope you all have great time ahead! And may god give you the power to fight with your inner battles. Never feel you are alone ,someone is always with you in this battle.

MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENT:

As i mentioned in start of the blog that there is a major announcement. I just want you all to know that i am currently writing a screenplay. Work is on progress. Around 30 percent of work has been completed. I don't know how long will it take to get completed. Plan is to send the script to production houses. Will always require your love and support.

If you read till here, Thank you so much.

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